And The Flame...Still Burns!

I’m sitting in an empty room; drinking cold milk from a glass. I just want to write some texts, messages, and my own personal diary entries into this blog.


Yes I have written down my text messages since a while back. I’m lame I know!

10th October 2004: 09:02pm - Nips
Hi what are you doing? Pig’s is shit without you tb love Nips xxxx

3rd January 2005: 01:16am - Ashley
Too hot? What’s too hot? What if I can’t keep my hands to myself? You’re very attractive. : P

1st March 2005: 11:25pm - Sam
Ello. How could I forget about you? You’re always on my mind. Can’t wait until tomorrow. Have a good night sleep babes I love you loads. Tb Samuel xxx

03rd March 2005: 10:44pm – Pig
Maybe you should go and find some macaroni ; ) and watch out for the jolly green giant . . . . His farts reek xxx

19th March 2005: 10:19pm – Len
Arg indeed. That was rather cowardly though, sending someone else to do it. Being single is a hell of a lot easier though! Be a player Tab, then everyone will love you even it you don’t love them!

29th March 2005: 11:37pm – Biggins
You know what you’ve just exceeded the maximum log size for msn making you not only the coolest but the most chatted to contact – you should be proud ; ) x

20th April 2005 – Jess (I didn’t write down the time)
Amanda bratwurst cunt dick eeee fanny goat Hitler igloo Julie kunst lentils nigger octopus phallus queen rumplestiltskin, swastika, trooper, underworld, venezuala, wendy, xylophone, zebra.

Diary.

22nd January – “I’m with Jimmy and I really like him.” “I’m not so sure who to like though, I suppose the only decent guy out there is Len”

27th January – “Sam said I was quite ‘fuckable’ I think I like him, but I’m with Jimmy.” “Life is hard! Once again!”

14th March – “Jimmy’s ugly” “I actually think I love Sam”

20th March - “Sam dumped me on the 18th ” “I miss him so much” “I love jess, she’s the only one I can rely on at the moment, the only steady thing in my life that has been for a while and I hope will for a long time.”

6th April – “I lost my virginity last night” “Tonight I’ve cut myself” “I don’t know why I feel so fucking suicidal!” “I’m a fucking twat” (blood soaked paper)

10th April – “Not so suicidal” “I feel Sam gets on with Stacey and Britney more than me! I suppose that’s the equivalent to my Len and Rik!”

16th April – “Last night I had sex twice” “The guys I like: 1) Sam 2) Damo 3) Ally”

20th April – “I got Sam hard at Mon’s today, go me!” “Had my college induction today, there’s this fat townie bitch who I think I’ll end up hating. Her name is Chelsea”

21st April – “I see myself as a silly little girl in a grown up world, just like the lyrics in a song of Jess’s”

24/25th April – “I’m a bitch!” “I was planning on having phone sex with this guy I don’t know from the internet, when he rang me I didn’t answer…What was I thinking?! How lame!”

26th April – “I suppose I find it quite hard to show affection” “I feel like me and Sam are closer than ever, we were talking for ages last night and it felt so natural just to be speaking to him”

27th April – “What is wrong with me? I’m a fucking smoker!” “My throat really hurts, unexplained reasons”

Sunday May 1st – “I fucking hurt ‘down there’ I’ve got cystitis” “Sam said he would do time for me…Yeh rite! I wouldn’t go that far…”

9th May – “My brother caught me crying” “Don’t think it’s a good thing that I like Sam so much, I don’t think I like him as much as I did, but whatever will be will be”

11th May – “I’ve split with Sam!” “I haven’t cried yet and I probably won’t” “Did he even care about me?” “I’ll miss shagging him, that’s about all” “Stu said to me today: ‘Just remember you’re beautiful and you don’t need any lads to mess you about!!”’

12th May – “still haven’t cried, I’m doing extremely well!”

That’s the last time I wrote because my lights broke and I can’t write in the dark!

For the end of school, I got a book for people to write comments in. Here are some of the ones I like.

Dear Tabby Tab Tab, try not to live too dangerously – my God that’s a long word for me! I hope you have oodles of “safe” (lol) fun at college or wherever you go – if it’s north devon yay! Lol well I’ve rambled on for too long with too much bullshit, have a peach life! Rose

Hey Tabakebabatha, Love you loads, always will “Do whatever you want to do, be whatever you want to be, coz you’re free – to do whatever you want to do!” Be safe, never put yourself in unnecessary danger honey, don’t follow the crown. And remember, love life – love sandwiches” Mwah luv Emz –x-

Hey Tab I’ve only known you for like a year and a bit, but I consider you one of my A-list friends. I’ll miss your randomness and the weird convo’s our group have, Think of you always. Peace Out Ant Mitch xxx

Stop disturbing me Tabby! From Chang.

I disapprove however don’t hate the player, hate the game. I will always remember maths, but no the actual maths, I will remember you. Peace xxx

Dear Tabatha! You know I’m gonna miss your beautiful smiley face in the mornings but all good luck in the future and I hope you get what you want out of like. Luv ya loads, Michelle xxx

Hello Tabby. You and Jenny Moore were mean to me in Bude Juniors. But now your creepy and that’s funny. Don’t stop stealing science equipment. James.

Hey Tab, I never really got to know you that well, but you always seemed to be laughing. Don’t ever change, Love Alice xx

Dearest my Tabby Babey! Actually gonna miss you lots, especially our random drawings of the lion king! They are sexy! I hope you become a porn star like you’ve always wanted – and you use a corn on the cob vibrator! Luv you Tabbz, Sammywoo
I love you Tabby! Here are some of our memories:
I walked through Da
You’re a bucket lady collecting shells
My knees breaking and being yellow
My fall near the gorilla
Funny voices in the play
Reece! Lmao
Bollox in a blender
A-cu-na-ma-tar-ta!
And so may more! Luv you hun Sammy woo

Dearest my lovely tab How fab does this crown look? Good luck naughty nurse, you have enourmous bosoms : ) Love Jenn xxx

Dear Tabby, it’s been great knowing you these past three years. I will miss you annoying e in science lessons. I hope you have a fabulous time in college and I wish you the best of luyck in the future. Love chang (He did his name in Chinese symbols too :D)

Ta-Bar-Tha I’m gonna miss you and your funny comments so mucg but will still hopefully see you. Take care and good luck with everything. Love you lots love Corrin Poo xx



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Thank you for tyour entertainment these last 2 years, You were the one that shaped my highschool humour and memories. You take care of yourself, I love you Jess x

I doas realy realy want to fuk u loads xx aj

I think you are fit xx

You swore at me once but I’m over that now xx Peter Fawdon

Good luck for the future, see you soon Love Dan

Tabby u make me sex wee 2 times … maybe 1 day me and u hook up BABY YEAH! Kurty xxxx

I’m not following you! Good luck, Isobel

Hi Tabby. I don’t really know you much so I can say much so ‘hi’ Reece (WELL YOU FUCKING STINKING ARSE! YOU CLAIM THAT YOU CAN’T USE DEODORANT BECAUSE YOU HAVE ASTHMA AND FAKED HAVING A FIT DURING THE PLAY BECAUSE WE TRIED TO SPRAY YOU. AND ALSO ME AND JESS BROWN FIGHTED OVER WHO HAD TO SIT NEXT TO YOU, WE PRETENDED THAT WE WERE SPRAYING OURSELVES WHEN REALLY WE WERE SPRAYING YOU… I ALSO KNOW YOU WEAR RED PANTS BECAUSE I HAD THE PLEASURE OF WALKING IN ON YOU WHEN YOU WERE GETTING CHANGED AND YOU HAVE AN EXTREMELY SMALL PENIS. SO THANKS FOR WRITING SOMETHING SHIT IN MY FUCKING LEAVING BOOK!)

Sorry about Council houses, they don’t bother me, and I’m a nice ish person. Always remember you and have a gr8 time Chris Hobbs xxxx

Good Luck Luke S (lmao)

Bibi tabby take care luv ya wardy xxx

Thanks for always being there for me from yr7 to 11. I will never ever forget you and think of you every year on our birthday! And maybe one day we can go handglidind! Don’t get yourself into too much trouble and you can phone/text me whenever you want, day or night. I’ll always be there for you. Love you loads and loads and loads. Olivia xx( x100!)

I have enjoyed slappin your ass and squeezing your tits Call Me Ben C

Hey Tabby, My sexy lil Drama buddy, can’t believe your leavin me!!! Remember our chicken dance, drunken monkey and lords prayer! Make sure you remember me when you’re a famous actess and invite me to all the celeb parties so I can meet jude law and marry him and have lots of babies!! I’ll let you be godmother I promise, maybe even fairy godmother! You had better come and visit us in 6th Form! Lodza love Deezeray -xxxx-

Tabby, I will miss you terrible! If you don’t like college, come back. Love John xxx (My drama teacher)

Well I have been typing this into the early hours of the morning.
I will miss all of my mates from school. It’s so weird.
I would just like to say how much I love Jess and Pig! Said I would! I would be nothing without you guys and you have made me who I am today.

"It was a flight on wings of a young girls dreams"

x Tabby x