What's somebody like you, doing in a place like this?

I've had a really really shit month so far.
I've tried really hard getting these people to give me this job, and they have, but I've been waiting nearly 2 weeks for a start date.............EUGH. The contracts all signed, references given, just they're a bunch of dicks. Which takes me to the next factor, I'm moving early next month, so I'll have to quit the job anyway if they actually let me work in time. So I'm going to be skint.
(That was the first 2 'M's. Money and Move.)
The next M was Men. And how apparantly I'll meet my soul mate soon, which I fucking doubt to be honest.
I've had such a string of men I've been with and hasn't worked out, mainly due to me, but I'm not settling down with someone who I don't feel is my best mate and who I can't connect with properly. 
I keep wondering wether moving back from Greece was a mistake.
I really miss Jon it's really horrible and I've treated him so bad. He has only just given up on me not coming back. That's 3 months. He's coming to England to visit in September, I really want to see him again.
I try not to dwell on the past anymore. I haven't let loose my thoughts about this situation in a while and I guess that's why I wasn't that emotional about it before.
I'm so fucking angry with myself right now. For just not doing enough.