You're so hypnotizing.

Evening :)

So today I started off as any other person on job seekers. Not wanting to get out of bed because you're the bane of society.
Well. I got woken up by my mum at around 10:30am for a phone call. FROM A FUCKING JOB! I have an interview 3rd August. Pretty happy about that. I spent the day drinking relentless, hoovering and mopping floors whilst smoking countless cigarettes and texting boys.

Ha.

I have a lot of confidence I'll get the job. But I have a feeling I wont be in it for very long as I'm moving again to a different area in just over a month. Unless this job pays well, then my plan can be to get my own place just a few miles away from here.

I hate starting again and again. I've lived in countless places, even in a foreign country. I've made and unmade countless meanigless/meaningful friendships, and it gets tiring after a while. So now, I'm ready to be an 'independant woman'. With my own place that I don't share with a flaky twat. Or a boyfriend.

It's taken me a while to come to the conclusion that you cannot rely on anybody else at all. No matter how close you think they are to you. Humanity is selfish. It's not our fault, it's how we're wired.

In other news, I have my follow up MRI scan on the 5th. Which should have happened 7 months ago, so it's now been 20 months since the last one. I'm pretty certain that the growth on my spine hasn't done anything, my symptoms haven't got any worse, but saying that, they're still intefering with my nervous system and causing me mild irritation.

I'm spending the day with one of my new friends tomorrow, one that I'm potentially losing after coming to the conclusion that we get on like a house on fire. Sad face.

Oh and this weekend is looking pretty fucking great. Don't expect me to be home for any of it.

Wink.

xx