Well well well...

Well hello :) It's been a while. Things have changed dramatically. Let's have a quick run through of the events happened so far.
I moved in with Lettie in the chapel in Stratton, we then moved into a flat in Bude to save up for a place in Bournemouth, then she fucked me right over (making her new boyfriend move in our 1 BEDROOM FLAT...) and I had to move in with Jess and her family for the summer, then I finally came to move back home where everything has turned out for the better.
We are now in the process of packing gradually to move to Torquay in Decmeber. A new start. I was in Chester last weekend visiting Jess in her last year of uni which was really good and I had a great time. I am working for Hartlet Home Care at the moment, it's a bit shit but the moneys good. I spent a lot of time working at Bowden Derra for adults with servere disabilities and associated nursing needs. That was such a good job and I loved all the staff and all the clients. I could have worked there forever if the pay was good, but it so happens that the pay was shit and I couldn't afford to stay there. I have no contact or wish for contact with Joel now and I have finally managed to sort out all the debts of years ago paying for him to have a fun time takjing advantage of me just trying to please him. Anyway, after him I was with Luke for a long time and we where really compatible but I ended it as I have no want or need for a bloke in my life right now. Had a minor glitch with a lad named Kelvin and was with him for 2 weeks, that was good but I soon realised that relationships werent for me at the time. I have now been single for 3 months and I am quite happy about it, the lack of sex isn't great but i'm not too bothered. Len came down when I was living in the Chapel and it was the most amazing week ever, it's annoying how the people you want to stay in your lives for ever are the ones who never can. I've just spent a load of money on ebay treating myself to odd bits and pieces.
This year has been a very spiritual and eye opening one, I think I have learnt an awful lot about myself. I only hope things can improve and maybe in Torquay I can gain some really good trustworthy friends and maybe even the one?? Who knows. It may all just be shit and I might end up just as an empty shell coping and not living. I remain optimistic. Who knows what my future holds?

So, on the grand scheme of things, things are pretty good, except I really have no social life at the moment, it is my fault, I do have friends but my job is so demanding and I am working at 7am every morning except one and the evening before that I finish at 10 so what is the point of wearing myself out? I am happy how it is at the moment, and it will all be worth it when I have money saved up. I am off to read a book and fall asleep.

Goodnight all x