Just hold me tight and tell me you've missed me.

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO THE GOOD LIFE HEY?!?!?!
So baiscally. i've done the deed. A couple of deeds, well 17 deeds to be precise.
I couldn't honestly tell you right now how pointless everything in my life seems right at this very moment. Damnit. I'm just pissed off because I can't get my own way.
Why do I have some 46 year old man who controls my life and the only way to stop him is to move out. But that is not going to happen. I can touch type. Go me I suppose. I'm off for a much needed pint in a minute. Obsiously i'm not paying for it as i'm a tramp. I work 200 hours a month to be this skint. I think it's my hopeless addiciotn to heroin to be honest.
I have to stop that. I used to be such a poser. I guess I still am. I; just don;t have a sense of humour any more. It's gutting. Reall gutting. I actually have nobody. Which isn't the truth.
I just feel so damn lonely. It's all this work. I hate living right now. Just for this hour which i'm spending contemplating my actions for the next few minutes.
I'm cold :(
I just wanna get into the comfiest bed in the world and no have to wake up for a year then see what everythings like; just have to take it day by day.
Im completely sober but just writing what ever comes into my head. I guess I just need to pick up the pieces and put myself back together again.
There is definately something missing.
Im well pissed off. Why can't I get my own way. This could be ruining my life for all he knew.
But naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah does he give a fuck?
Nope because its NOT FUCKING HIM WHO IT INVOLVES.
SImple. He needs to take that finger from up his ass and have a different point of view. It is honestly shit.
Im off now. Tata x