Ten men went to mow, went to mow a meadow.

Work is really really pissing me off. I actually started to cry in the locker room it was pissing me off so much.
I can't actually handle anything at the moment. Things are getting to me so much. Theres just so much shit going on and I just don't want to be here anymore. Not meaning I want to die, but I just wanna get out of this place. Everyday is the same. I either start worrying about things, or just end up in a bad mood trying to forget.
I could just stay in my room forever. Fuck everyone.
Actually thinking of buying some weed. Theres no point saying i've quit for over a month. Because I havn't. I'm cheating on myself, no one else.
I dont know what to do with myself.
How did I get into such a mess.
I know I moan too much.
Think I may buy myself some, Just to give myself some of that anxiety, which I get everytime I try to sleep anyway so I don't know why I thought quitting would help.
I'm a dickhead.
I want to write what everything thats shit at the moment down, but I don't even know how to explain. Let's get to the point.
1) Some guy who loves me and I told him I don't feel the same. You would have thought that that was finished with...But oh no, it's never that simple.
2)Work, as you've guessed, i've been told i'm shit, nearly been sacked, so why the fuck are they keeping me and letting me be by myself for the whole day? It stresses me out so much to be by myself when it cl4early needs 2 or 3 people to do the jobs involved.
3) College, I said I wouldn't go into it, but it's only because i'm embarassed. I havn't done any of the work since Christmas last year. When I get back, I won't have done the assignment for this work experience. It will be the same. Nothing changed.
4)Anxiety, it's getting worse all the time. Theres nothing I can do about it either.
5)My car, It's costing so much, I'm having to spend so much on lessons and stuff, I've just had to give my mum £120 for cartax.
6) "friends" cheers guys. Just cheers. Backstabbing cunts.
Im not saying anymore.

I need to chill out n stop being so stressy.

My room is freezing.

Mums not putting the heating on because "it's not winter yet".

Well I do need to eat.