Rilo Kiley Great Stuff.

I have come to the conclusion that life sucks.

• For one, it is hard and boring.
• I can't hold up a relationship due to the lack of enthusiasm I have, and the way I just don't seem to "connect" with anybody.
• I don't want to grow up - Like Jess said last night.
• I'm actually never going to find a decent guy.
• I seem to be drifting away from my friends.
• I need to find my priorities in life and stick to them.
• I need to try and find a career I would like to do and do it.
• I need a job.
• I need to stop being so cynical (sp?)

Well anyway updates: I am single, I am jobless, I am extremely hot and worn out, I need to get my bowels sorted out..Enough about that.

I'm off to College at 6 :( An open evening or whatever so I will write in my blog, then go outside in my back garden and read a festering book. I don't know why, but for some time now I would rather be by myself. Is this weird? I need time to reflect and be my own person.

Saying that I know I'll go out, It always works that way whether you want it to or not. Sometimes I wish I was somebody with no connections to anybody, so I wouldn't have to worry about them, to do my own thing and choose what I want to do because I want to not from a recommendation or somethign i've heard. If I was a person like this I know I woouldn'y survive, I depend on everybody, I'm always looking for someone to help me with my problems so what I was talking there is bollocks. Well yeah, I';m off to read my book now.

Whats the point?!

Tab x